Happy 5 months Amaya! I love how intrigued you are with everything, touching all sorts of textures and putting everything in your mouth. It’s incredibly entertaining to watch you explore the world around you from mirrors to fabrics to my face. You have achieved some huge milestones in the past month, and every day you teach me something new. You make me stronger even when I feel physically weak, and you bring me and your daddy closer even when we’re tired and not our best. I’m so happy to be a witness to your life. Thank you for lighting up my days.
You Like: rolling over, looking at trees, watching mommy read to you, looking at your doggies, smiling at your daddy, watching tv (uh oh!), grabbing your feet, sucking your toes, naps in your stroller, making spit bubbles
You Dislike: having your nose wiped even though there’s snot all over your face, being sick, taking antibiotics
Stats: Weight – 13 lbs. 15 oz. Height – 23.5 in Head – ; Weight-for-Length –
- Rolling back to front
- Size 2 diapers
- 6 months clothes
- Grasping items with your hands
- Drinking your bottles at daycare
- Giggling more
- Great neck control
- Sitting up in tripod (hands braced on the floor)
- Pushing on your legs in your bouncer
- Drooling tons (no teeth yet!)
- Rolling front to back (hooray no more getting stuck and crying!)
- Sleeping on your belly
- Waking up once to feed at night between 3-5am
This month I got to do my first mommy project for Amaya’s daycare festival. It went really well! We showcased Vietnam with flags made by the babies’ foot prints, egg rolls, Vietnamese dresses (baby sized too!), lanterns and lucky red envelopes filled with stickers. The best part was spending time with other moms and our kiddos as we prepped the class. It’s fun to connect with other working moms and hear that we’re all going through the same thing. This week also kicks off Teacher Appreciation week, and we gave succulents to her teachers. Amaya loves them both, and they have been such gifts to us.
Amaya now gets easily distracted while feeding. Andy can’t be in the room, or she’ll unlatch and look for him. Some weeks she has a good appetite, but this week she’s been sick and feeds for a very short time. It makes me paranoid she’s not getting enough. She’s still gaining weight and looks happy, so I trust all is good. I know I won’t get to feed her forever, but I’ll do it as long as she let’s me. Who knew after all the weeks of pain and difficulty in the beginning that it would bring me so much joy and purpose?
Work Life Balance
For the first time in two years I woke up and felt like I didn’t want to go to work. I struggle with feeling productive while running back and forth to pump. I also have difficulty producing work that’s just ok when I used to aim for perfection. It doesn’t help that I’ve been sick twice this month, and every time I take time off to recover, I feel so far behind that it’s overwhelming. However, a majority of days I do feel stimulated by my work and love being around my coworkers. Then at the end of the day I rush home to Amaya, and she makes me so happy that I feel guilty for leaving her in daycare all day. Oh the emotions! My coworker told me that after maternity leave, she kept telling herself to come back each day until she found her happy. After awhile she did. Some days for me are really good and purposeful. Some days not so much. But I trust if I keep coming back, I’ll eventually get there too.
Ever since my meltdown a few weeks ago, I’ve been making time for yoga, even if it’s just 20 minutes twice a week in addition to PT. It compares to my old practice, but hey, it’s better than nothing. Being sick has taken a toll, but lately sleep is also necessary me time. I felt guilty sending Amaya to daycare sick while I was home and also sick, but I had to tell myself that she’ll have better care there. I need to recover, or I can’t help either of us. A few weeks ago, I went to see Ali Wong with some girlfriends, and I really needed a good hard laugh. She was so funny, I nearly peed my pants! I am realizing that I need to be mindful of how I choose to go out and socialize. Certain settings are healing and others are draining. I need to come back to this and figure out what/who revives me. It will help to cultivate the right social settings instead of just jumping at the easiest opportunities.
Andy and I are doing so much better. We don’t have any time for ego or stubbornness, so our conversations have to be more forgiving and generous. I’m surprised when he calls me out, and I actually respond by acknowledging the issue vs. getting defensive. I’m also grateful when I call him out, and he takes the feedback to heart and makes a change. I’d say we are really adulting now. It’s so much easier when you cut out the bullshit! I’m grateful for Andy every single day.
We’re still making an effort to go to Houston each month, but it’s getting harder. Our last trip over Easter weekend took nearly 4 hours on the way back and required 4 stops (2 to nurse, 1 for a blowout, and 1 for gas because we didn’t notice…oye). Timing is everything, but being flexible and not losing my shit is more important! I resorted to letting Amaya watch Dora on my phone so she would stop crying for the last 15 minutes of the car ride. Leaving town on a holiday doesn’t help, and our next trip is Memorial Day weekend. Wish us luck.
- Catching Amaya watching the Secret Life of Pets with daddy
- First date night with Andy at DK Sushi while my aunt babysat (we’ve had two couples dates prior)
- Getting distracted while nursing and smiling when daddy comes in the room
- Rolling around in happy baby pose with Auntie Jennifer
- Daddy putting yogurt on her lips (not interested in solids yet!)
- Grandpa playing guitar for her class at daycare
- First outing to Barton Springs in her super cute watermelon bathing suit from Auntie Ai!
- Bouncing like crazy in her jumper borrowed from Camila
- Giggling while Olivia licks her face
- First low grade fever and double ear infection #daycarelife
- Staring in amazement at the wind rustling the tree branches
Mantra: Start where you are. Use what you have. Do what you can.